April 2010
9 posts
March 2010
6 posts
February 2010
2 posts
December 2009
6 posts
Merry Christmas.
In case anyone actually ever reads this..
I use this as a place to send pictures from my phone.
November 2009
1 post
August 2009
3 posts
Life is changing. I’m changing.
Today is not a day for living; it’s a day for sleeping.
July 2009
1 post
My mother doesn’t know what to say to me. I think i’m scaring her and she hates me for it. I want to run away to Austin.
May 2009
12 posts
-sigh-
Life is a series of circles and spirals.
This hurts.
Okay. I graduated. What am I supposed to do now?
(Fuck you, by the way. The level of anger I have towards you cannot even be described in words.)
…I was a little drunk when I wrote that. You should read it from the bottom up, obviously.
I graduate from high school tomorrow.
We would travel whenever we had the whim, keeping out of tourist traps and sticking with the ancient, rustic traditions. Hell yes. =)
I could totally live on homemade bread and penne pasta salad and coconut rum. And i would wear only dresses, all in different colors.
I feel empowered..?
Today is good.
My room is clean, my car is clean (though I still need to wash it), but I’m still incredibly bored.
And I really want to drink.
I think John’s an alcoholic.
-sigh-
My life is a complete waste of time. Kill me.
The only thing I’ve ever tried to do is help you. And the only thing you do is throw it back in my face half the time. Honestly, after everything you’ve said about how much you need me, I would think you’d fucking…care. I know you do, somewhere in your mind. But you could fucking show it. My life is not as interesting as yours, but it’s not the most amazing thing...
…But I don’t want to do the right thing.
I need a job…
<3
I think I’m…becoming the world’s replacement for him. I am myself but I have some of his qualities that I didn’t have before. I think…my mind is preparing myself for if he finally breaks and kills himself. In order to never forget him…I’m making him a part of me. I think I’m subconsciously trying to take some of his pain upon myself. It hurts so...
April 2009
8 posts
Oh no…
I’m rather confused.
It wasn’t bad at all…
This is miserably pointless. I want to leave.
Insanity…
I got two hours of sleep last night. Texted him until 3:30 in the morning, then couldn’t sleep. I told him almost exactly what I wrote yesterday, but the bleak conversation took an…odd turn. He did it on purpose, knowing it would distract me, I’m fairly sure.
I don’t know what to think anymore. _________________________________
I do believe I’ve found a roommate for...
I just spoke to one of my exes. We were on the phone for 42 minutes.
I am never on the phone for that long.
We’ve been talking a lot lately.
…He’s pretty cool.
March 2009
11 posts
If I ever say I love him again, please shoot me.
I’m done.
And I have no best friend.
How surprising, right?
What the fuck is your problem?
And what is mine?
I don’t know what to do anymore. Everything is spiraling and I don’t want to care. I thought you could save me, but nothing can. You have no idea how betrayed I feel. Just don’t understand anything anymore.
Fuck you..